Mirrors

I use mirrors to look at myself, 

As does everyone else.

But mine doesn't just show me my reflection

It shows me the direction

The direction I wish to take and the one I should 

Now if only I could, make the decision

Ease my mind, ease my heart, ease my pain

Nothing will ever be the same

I love so hard, care so much, some might even say too much

Now that doesn’t bother me until it is used against me, A weapon

I am lost, I don’t know what to do, I know who I am, what I am. But accepting that sometimes is hard

It’s the cause of many of my pain 

I want, I really want, but should I? That’s the question.

Doubts are floating around me, everywhere.

But your presence is everything I want, peaceful and joyful.

Is that everything I need, want and deserve?

The light is sometimes blocked by the clouds.

Day and night all seem the same.

I don’t know my place anymore.

People keep pushing me around

Trying to fit me in a box

But you are not meant to organize the lost

You are meant to be there for them

Hold their hand

I want someone who’ll stand with me in the quicksand

Help me control my breath until I can walk head held high like I am meant to be

When I look in the MIRROR I want to see Me,

The best version of me I can be